My beautiful daughter and I share a special connection that started the moment the labor and delivery nurse put her in my arms.
Okay, so this actually happened several hours after her birth, because during that time I begged them to count her fingers and toes then take her to the nursery asap! Fourteen hours of body-splitting labor, a quickly set up c-section surgery, her father nearly fainting, and my daughter’s immediate, jolting cry, wasn’t conducive to maternal joy and bliss!
So, after returning to my hospital room from recovery, and feeling somewhat more “relaxed,” the nurse brought in my beautiful, finally calm, baby to hold.
Ally fit perfectly on my arm from my fingertips to my elbow and I immediately felt love-struck with her perfect beauty; I also experienced a magical feeling that she was someone very, very special… and my heart swelled with love.
Fast forward 30 years and suffice it to say we’ve hammered out our mother/daughter/woman-to-woman love relationship like a goldsmith creating jewelry using a blazing torch of fire (although I should have used the face protection they never go without!).
I can and will share some of the gory details at another time; for now, I want to share the blog message she forwarded to me last week that left me blubbering and sobbing with love. You can read the entire post (written by a different blogger, see link below), which is worth the two minutes it takes. If you’re a mom, or anyone with a heart, and it doesn’t make you cry, perhaps you’re a robot!
Ally, who frequently reads this blog, sent me the entire post with a message “This is so how I feel about you!!” Here are a few of the lines that stopped me in my morning coffee and email tracks and reaffirmed that life is about love…and a gift we receive every day.
I Finally See You Mom
“Just your presence put me at ease, and I could breathe again. Why does everything feel so safe when you’re around?
I’m 31 and I still want to go running to you sometimes. You always know what to say to me to make everything feel better. You’re the only one who hears everything I don’t say and sees everything I try to hide.
You mother me even when I don’t know it. You make me feel so special, so heard, and I never appreciated it until this time in my life…
I see what you sacrificed and how much you loved. I finally see you, Mom.”
http://www.scarymommy.com/articles/i-finally-see-you-mom?section=scary-mommy-blog&u=1kdj91ruSU
Internal Love, External Joy 